most of my ex bfs dun like the way i care for them.... tt's why most of them left.. and i left some because i know that they dun like being controlled or i would never be able to care for them... cuz they just dun get it... so 1 after 1 i try to change... i try not to be so naggy... not to control them... i dun exactly control them... i just dun wan them to do certain thing not because i'm a spoiler or i'm no fun... but it hurts them... and it hurts me even more.. even if it doesn't hurt me, it hurts their family... but they just dun get it... so i keep thinking it's me.. so i really wanna change.. but seems like it's not working.. i'm doing it to my bf now.. SHIT!! i dunno if he's regretting anything... or feeling unhappy about it.. but i really want us to work... want it so badly that i dun exactly know what i should do and what i shouldn't.. his friends probably think i'm a prick or something... so for bringing this further to the next stop, i'm telling my bf this.. do wad u think is right and if it makes u happy cuz if u r then i'm.. but just one thing, if u gonna do harm or u know that it might hurt, bring me along. - this is an order!

I LOVE YOU BRYAN HO!

una niña muy afortunada

sorry guys.. bear with the big photo of me.. lol.. i can't seems to shrink it.. but i think it doesn't really matter.. cuz the girl in the picture is so pretty... LOL

anyway, i had the most wonderful week since last sunday.. totally love it!

revolutionary...

did i mention that i cut my hair before christmas? it's not 10 inches shorter... !! 10 inches!! i cut my hair so that i will see a change in my life. A better one i hope.

so many things happened recently.. or rather it happened so god damn long ago but some bastard just can't get over it and wanna bring it up again.. the worst part is, this guy is older than me!!! he should behave more like his age but instead, he is behaving like all the other girls at the workplace - childish! OMFG! i really pity him to get himself into this sorry state right now.. he actually sms-ed all my friends who are also his friends as well to let them know that i'm a liar.. haha.. i'm sorry to say but he had just gotten himself to even more shit because not everyone knows but he sms-ed everyone. Now some of them must be wondering what's wrong with him because i did not mention anything to them. Yeah! answer is CHILDISH la! LOL!!

then next problem.. a problem that i wanna tell the whole world.. so that they can help me solve.. but people look at me like one kind when i try telling them.. LOL.. like that how to tell people my problems.

Seems like what my mum said is true, there are many problems in the world. but not everyone is fit to know your problems because they themselves can't even solve their own problems.

someone told me this earlier : "I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there, I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do, I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you."

today my fortune reading says i need to keep quiet.. and that's why i have been doing the whole day.

back to mugging!

2010

It's year 2010!!! N my name is still jaslyn. Quite a few stuffs changed since 2009.

Firstly, tons of my friends are either engaged or married. I guess at around my age it is pretty normal.

Secondly, my siblings have grown so much in terms of character.

Thirdly, my life changed as well. I rmb the start of last year I was actually playing a lot. Treating each day like every other day. But this year is different. Looking at how much time I had wasted and looking at people graduating 1 by 1. I feel so retarded. How did I became so dumb?

There are some stuffs which did not changed too while some are undergoing changes for more improvements. Therefore I sincerely hope for a better year.

My new year resolution is...... Make myself happy with whatever I do n to cherish everyone who loves me and are always around me to give me any form of support.

Happy 2010 everyone!!!