it's nearly 2 months since i worked at borders... things changed somehow... just had my anniversary with baby last wednesday... he really really made me felt like i was the most fortunate woman on earth. he bought me a new pair of ring. which is super unique..
then a le coq bag... colour i love... and a red long wallet cuz i'm ah lian... lol...

then sat night went drinking cuz it was his b'dae... tried very hard to get as much people to come.. but i really couldn't... it wasn't easy... but thanks to those people who came... i'm kinda broke after that night... but it was okie... cuz everyone enjoyed... and baby was happy... details i shall not say cuz not really in the mood to do so...

and today... went to work with a sprained ankle... in sandals... but jo was pretty understanding.. she said it was okie... and apparently i was the hero for the day... but some things was just upsetting... i really do not blame anybody... but i was just upset... thinking of it.. i tear... but nvm...

it's all over..
i hope tml will be a fresher day... and hope to see u tml...

love u...

it's getting more and more difficult to keep it in.... tell me wad to do...

it's not wanted...

maybe i should go missing slowly...

was it very long ago since i blogged? lol.

too busy with school, tests, work, blah blah blah...

everything's cool. nothing much changed. haven't been going for BB practice. feels bad... so sorry peepz... tests is holding me up... plus the work... it's terrible...

so much shipments came in cuz of christmas, holloween, and other stuffs... and i just realized i haven't had my off day yet. the last one was last sunday... OMG!!! this is crazy... but i guess it's the people whom u work with makes u wanna work more.

it's gonna be our 1 yr anniversary and his birthday soon... OMG again!!! lol. actually had a plan... but work schedule dun allow my plan to proceed as follow... so i gonna bring baby to eat sharkfin ramen... and buy him a nice present. really dunno what to do. he doesn't wan to spend it alone with me... but wants a bunch of frenz... so yupz. tt's the most i can do with him alone on that day.

that's all i guess... could be quite long before i gonna blog.. could be...

-hope everything is worthwhile-

the atmosphere is so cold... everything seems so abnormal after ytd morning... what happened?

a msg sent with a 2 word reply... lots of avoiding...

haven't been able to blog lately..

due to work, school, studying, exam, accompanying baby, eating, sleeping, slacking, baracuda, etc... but it's okie.. blogging is not on my top priority list. =P

seriously, it's my PBF test tml, but i totally have no mood to study... or i think i'm just too lazy to find the books...

i'm sorry to those who haven't got the photos from me... will upload it ASAIHTT...

realized how important mummy is... without her... there's no food on the table at this hour. and it's LUNCHTIME!!! without her... i will be too lazy to do any housework... so she's like super important... but nvm... shall make do with the bread i bought and my honey red tea for now...

and i've decided to study straight after lunch... woohoo!

oh ya! i just re-make my POSB card!!! super happy... first thing i did was to buy something for baby paying via NETS!!! having my POSB card back is like having found the missing part of my dead body... YES! it's that important to me... Hooray!!!

argh!!!!! i just friggin' lost my wallet...

contents : 1 identification card
1 Silver ATM POSB Card
1 Go! Debit POSB Card

May the person who took it and dun return rot to death right now... and if the person returns, i promise never to lose my wallet again...

Then again.... in replacement, i got myself a tamagotchi ver. 4!!! but i am only left with 85 cents and a ez-link card with $7.04 left... OMFG!

was so bored... came across this webby...

Never Date a Capricorn

Somber, demanding, and freakishly logical. Emotions? It's not clear that Capricorn has them.And while it may be flattering for a Capricorn to be serious about you, bad news: they expect you to be super serious in return. Instead try dating: Aquarius, Gemini, Leo, or Virgo

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Your Old Fashioned Name Is...

Fortune Elmebrigge

What's" Your Old Fashioned Name?

You Were An Angel This Year

You Were 15% Naughty, 85% Nice You know you've been a super good girl this yearSo good, that you may have missed out a little...Don't worry, Santa will make it up to you!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

woah! i was an angel... LOL!

You Are 73% Passionate, 27% Compassionate

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queenPeacemaker, first to end a fightGood at thinking up creative datesTend to fall in love and get hurt easilyGoing with your gut instead of your headEmpathetic and caring, sometimes to a faultGood at recognizing patterns in relationshipsBeen in love many times, perhaps too many to countWildly passionate and intense when falling in loveSpontaneous with relationships, going with the flowOverly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mindRoses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You a Right Brained or Left Brained Woman in Love?

i answered accordingly.. but it doesn't seems true... oh well...

You Should Play the Drums

You are often hyper, restless, and full of a little too much zeal.However, people may be surprised to know that you can focus your energy well. You are driven and engaged enough to be a great drummer... and you have the stamina to practice for hours.In fact, when you can channel your energy productively, it only increases! You are independent and spirited... but also consistent. You can definitely keep the beat.You work well in a group and contribute heartily - without needing to take the lead. Your dominant personality characteristic: your aggression Your secondary personality characteristic: your precision

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Baracuda Peepz... you should try this...

Your Superpower Should Be Invisibility

You are stealth, complex, and creative.You never face problems head on. Instead, you rely on your craftiness to get your way.A mystery to others, you thrive on being a little misunderstood.You happily work behind the scenes... because there's nothing better than a sneak attack! Why you would be a good superhero: You're so sly, no one would notice... not even your best friends Your biggest problem as a superhero: Missing out on all of the glory that visible superheroes get

What Should Your Superpower Be?

LOL! i think Pixar might need me in their next movie...

You Are a Lace Bra!

Dreamy, romantic, and ultra-feminineYou're a womanly woman who makes guys feel like menYour perfect guy is strong, determined, and handsomeWith a softer side that only you can draw out

What Kind of Bra Are You?

woah!! baby... r u reading this? haha...

You Probably Couldn't Be a Vegetarian

The truth is, you really like your meat - a lot more than you like animals.For you, being vegetarian is hardly even a choice. You'll take steak over tofu any day.A vegetarian lifestyle is not in the cards for you. You're just not going to go there!

Could You Be a Vegetarian?

Faiz... this is so true right?!? =)

OMG!!... was just so bored.... LOL!

Gonna go back to do some serious work... like reallllyyyy!!!!

hey hey everybody!!

i just got back from China - Zhejiang... it was like darn cool... but not at the same time...

they are like totally conserving the friggin' energy... by switching off all aircons that u see in China... it was like 30 degree celcius over there... and they say aircon got problem..

ask for cold drinks... they say refrigerator spoil... OMFG!!

but luckily... the people there... the students who brought us around... made it super fun for us throughout our stay there.... shopping wasn't quite fruitful though... just enjoyed the bargaining... some shopkeeper actually tot i was a china girl... lol... so could bargain for more discounts... =P

baby bought me a Hello Kitty Keyboard... and it came in handy cuz my lappy kepboard spoil... and the new keyboard has hot keys which are all working.... OMG!!!! LOL!


See!! is this cute???

Now... feeling kinda guilty... been like playing so much.. totally not back in the school mood... so yupz... and the work... thinking of quiting... not bcuz i played too much... but bcuz my school work not catching up... and i am not enuff time for resting... just realized the work taking up too much of my time...

and when i am back.. saw some emails... from the library director to the secretary...saying that she did not mark off the dates from the calendar after doing newsclipping for her... and if it was the temp who did it.. please get the temp to mark off the calendar... cuz she dun expect missing dates.... obviously... she was implying that it's my fault... but the secretary did not even ask me to mark off the calendar... all she did was to ask me to print and submit to the director.... which i did... and the secretary did not bother explaining to her... and just forwarded the email together with her instructions on asking me to do this and do that... the director is just unhappy about everyone's work... why not she do it on her own... esp my work... and i know i have to work lesser time... bcuz i got school... which again i know she's unhappy abt it... but cannot say anything bcuz i'm the only temp left...

prolly work for another month or so... wait for jia yi and gang to come back.. then i concentrate on my studies and baby... see how everything goes... right now... i gonna go eat my KFC and then drink lotsa water then sleep... =)

okie... nights everyone.. photos next day then i put up...

Love my baby...

how is it that u dun need to spare any thoughts for others... and yet u can still be so nonchalent about it...

no one likes me... everything i do is wrong... everything.... i'm nv right... not even once... why do i deserve this? it's so unfair.... u guys are always the right one... everything u guys say are right... when it's me... i try to say something... i will be countered back... then it will eventually be my wrong... tt's why sometimes i choose to stay quiet... and tell myself everything will be alright...

should i continue trusting you or just act nonchalently... i'm confused....

it's been nearly 12 hours... and there are no signs... not a single movements... not a single sound... it's like everything is not alive... i wonder why i deserved to go thru' this... i wonder... my brain's dead from lack of nicotine... played sims 2 ytd nite... baby bought it for me.. thanks so much....

these are so random...... i need to know where i stand... cuz no one certainly deserves this.. esp me...

looking at the wordsearch book... but i dunno what am i trying to do with it... anyway... is it autumn festival? cuz my mum just bought 2 mooncake just for me to eat... so touched....

somehow it's terrible.....

baby... when u see this, i would prolly be asleep... tot would see u online... but nvm... tml when u leaving house to find me... call me or something... see u tml... goodnite...

u know what... u r a goddamn bitch

it really sucks to be poor... really really... not trying to be negative but that's the truth...

wanna see the list of my loans?

To: Auntie Pauline - $5,000 (for UOL school fees)
To: Uncle Peter - $2,000 (for UOL Application fees)
To: Auntie Irene - $1,450 (for UOL Registration fees)
To: Auntie Irene - $250 (for SATS)
To: Baby - $170 (for tiding over the month of family crisis) *whereby some are already cleared
To: Granny - $400 (for my trip to Australia with band last yr)
To: Hazmi - $18.69 (refund from spree-er to him but not transferred to him)

The GRAND TOTAL = $9,288.69

Look at the list... it's not exhaustive....

Anybody wants my blood for $1m?

i know i'm not... it's just irregular...

stressing over the wrong things.... giving myself unneccessary stress.

2 sis at home and down with hand,mouth,foot disease... dun even dare to go near them...

hope they get well soon!

it's National day. Singapore has just turned 42 yrs old i think... kinda young actually... and it's holidays for everyone... everyone just love holidays.. me too... i love holidays... you know what's the meaning of holidays? it means "having more time to spend with your love ones". yepz.. wanna spend more time with my love ones...

so my plans goes like that tml.
morning - 7am head to market with mumMy to buy praying stuffs
dunno what time i'll be back home...

noon - 11 plus have early lunch with family...

then head down to baby's... but no time given yet... prolly mj... prolly stay home whole day... i dunno... prolly walk ard BP area... but nvm.. as long as i get to accompany him.. everything should turn out well... but please dun get used to it... i still wanna go town with u... :)

alright... kinda late... for me... hope u guys have fun tonight...

wo hui bu hui hen........? I LOVE YOU!

Haven't been uploading much photos... shall upload as many as i can... (some are super long ago)

me n baby

soccer time!

the typical matin who would not turn to his back.. -camwhore- =)

Practising some formation in band room

Eating at "i forgot where"

having discussion at 'Restroom'

doesn't this looks sweet... yupz..

baby just bought a tiny teddy bear hp strap for me.. it's so cute...

haven't been spending much time together... guess partly it's me.. always have to stuck in library. and gotta go see doctor with mummy and stuffs.. another part would be, baby's having exams soon. and he shan't fail.

but i know baby still misses me alot.. right? =P i miss u too...

it's first day of school but i'm totally like not excited about it even though it's my fav sub. i know something gonna go wrong... somehow... somewhere... but i dunno what...

am i detestable? or r u trying to be ignorant and irritating?

i dunno...

anyway, ytd BB got the outstanding arts award... it's pretty cool... but just as usual, people somehow will spell our group name wrongly... but still ya... it's all about us and not the trophy or cert... and the fondue, the sushi, the pastries, the tempura!!! OMG!!! we were like having picnic la...

haha... guess that will be all... will uploads photos soon...

MiSs BabY

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i browse upon some website and guess what i see. I SAW SOMETHING WHICH MADE MY EYES PAINFUL!!! OMG!!!! DISGUSTING!!!

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously... why should i keep to my promises when u dun... told u that my lappy is dying... u insist on using it.. says u know how to handle... (it's mine! for friggin' goodness sake!! you know it better or me!?!) darn... so nvm... i lent it to u... and u promised that u would put it back under my bed at 12am sharp on 25th july... and what was the outcome? u din... so why should i keep to my promise.. prove to me something before u wan me to do the same...

anyway... every others made my day... baby was the best still of course... wanna get angry over something but just look at him, and all anger are gone.. =)

anyway, did i mentioned that shopping online is healthy and fun? they are like so much cheaper. or at least cheaper than SG. haha... me and jia yi is like browsing the website every single day.. without fail... got money = spend. no money = look and wait for the next spree... haha.. TOTAL "TAI TAI".

haven't take photos of the things that we bought... but yupz.. it's from FOREVER21. awesome!

okie... that sounded bimbo.... haha...

so yupz... tt's all.. off to sleep.. =P

oh... please... u... get a life!!! u sound like a pathetic bitch... U sounds like u needa get laid... SERIOUSLY!!! go get someone else ur size... and i think u need to be breastfed!!!

i dunno... just wanna let u know how i feel... just like how u wan me to... i tell u... but u dun seems happy... it's not about the msging and stuffs... i tot u just needed to sleep it off.. maybe u need more time... anyway... if u see this.. just wanna let u know... i dun wan to continue being strangers with u... otherwise, how am i suppose to be the old self again?

i'm useless... so blardy useless...

realized it's been a while since i blogged...

been really busy and stuffs...

just came back from the docs... woke up with a mump or bulge or whatever at the back of my cheeks... quite painful... couldn't tok much... mump due to over heatiness and stuffs... dun really understand but just had 4 different medicine to take until the swell goes off...

supposed to go Science Centre today cuz mummy say i nv go before... wanna bring me there with my siblings and cousins. but stupid sister have yet to finish her work. and stupid father suddenly ask her to go for some compo tuition. obviously trying to spoil our plans. but nvm. body's not well to go anywhere today... prolly just hang ard my area with my cousin...

okie... gonna go eat the super bland porridge...

Baby... miss you Loads...

started working in ngee ann poly library for 3 days already... been doing alot of web "work". it's quite tedious... but fun... but it's like friggin' cold up there... then lunch time will hang ard BGZ to mend the counter for kah hong (however you spell the name =)

the BGZ is prolly the coolest place in the library... i've actually learnt how to play most of the board games, tho' i'm still lousy @ some...

as a player... i learn alot of games...
as a staff... i realized it's hard work even when those people playing are enjoying...

the games here are fun tho... the game i love the best is eh.... actually i not sure what... but it's okie.. everything is fun... if anyone read my blog and have not actually visited the library board games zone... do come down now... haha...

=P

i'm decided to change the perspective for certain things... =)

haha... love baby

so many confusions.. so many troubles... i just wanna stop them right here... right now...

i dunno what i did to deserve this... unwanted by many....

all the naggings... all the talkings... is all just making me feel more sick each day...

i need a lil' love right now...

mood :

happy anniversary to baby sweetheart....

win mj again tml nite... this time i'll let u win... and i promise to pay the cab fare to sch tml... =)

*anyway!!! i won like $27.30 during mj session.. haha... *

today is my big day.. for school life.. lol... GRADUATION CLASS 2007... i officially graduated from Ngee Ann Polytechnic today... but the 3 yrs in poly was tough and fun...

considering that i'm not a very smart student, i still successfully graduated.. everything was difficult to me while easy to many others... have many important people to thank for "pushing" me to where i stood today during the grad ceremony... it was difficult but fun... i must say i have a wonderful class, gr8 frenz, parents who spurred me to work harder, and many others who entered and exited my life in Ngee Ann...

had lots of photos taken but have to wait for them to be uploaded and to be sent to me.. i dun have a fantastic camera.. tt's why... DC also lousier than others.. but nvm... joyous occasion...

today when i got up the bus to go town, i suddenly have this mixed feelings inside me... the joy, the sadness and alot of unwillingness... i know i'll still be coming back.. but i just feel so different after graduated... all the 'rushing for projects', 'overnights at wei's or yan's place for project', 'exam fears' all no more...

However, NP shall always be the most wonderful place which i will always remember bcuz of all of you people...

Loads of thanks to my wonderful photographer, Desmond darling.
.
Lastly, congrats to all who graduated too!

-Happy Graduation 2007-

the day i'm so like totally not looking forward to is finally here... -.-

arGh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hm... another has passed... but it seems so slow... i dunno why... waiting... is so tiring... waiting for buses, waiting for mrts, waiting for cig breaks, waiting for baracuda to start, waiting for replies, waiting for this and that, he and she... so tiring. but it all eventually came except one... it's far too difficult to explain...

and i just realized there are a lot of procrastinators ard... they say it but dun do it... what's the whole damn point then..... if u know tt's gonna happen dun even say it... just shut up and it will REALLY helppppppppp....

and i'm injured but no one bothered...

other than these, the day was as per normal...

-wo zhen de hen fan ma?-

me and baby got the same phone!!! =) N80i

awww... so sweetttt

zao yi xi guan le ni de wo xing wo su... hai you ni de bu li bu qi... ke shi gong pin ma? she wang ni na duo yi dian dian de ti tie...

i miss you baby...

i seriously dun understand... why does he always have to spoil my already limited happiness.. would a parent wan his/her son/daughter to be unhappy while going thru the growing up stage? i've already abide to everything he say since pri to sec to poly.. now it's the job i'm in... one parent supported me and thinks that i should be happy.. cuz i should enjoy not endure.. but the other parent think that i should work my ass off and slog no matter how tough it is.. i understand he wants me to experience the real working world... but seriously, who have actually had a bad working experience over the first professional job he/she got... tell me.. who??? i'm so sick and tired of all these... those who are reading or heard me, prolly are tired and sick of it too.. cuz i said it uber loads of time...



anyway, thanks baby for lending a listening ear... and u were more than tt by encouraging me and supporting me...


Anyway... this is hazmi for u.. =)

i had the most wonderful day ytd... went to bras basah to get repinique and snare with mat and siraj... it's fun to get discounts... (okie, i know tt's being quite auntie..) =P...

then met baby to sing kbox @ the one winnie worked in... suppose to have mich and bf there.. but they tell me they couldn't make it..

so nvm...

and i'm really sick of work.. i know whining and complaining doesn't help and when i complain to others, they might find it irritating.. so i'm just gonna blog it down... and pray for this ordeal to get thru soon... (if i had nicer colleagues, i wouldn't even mind the miserly salary i'm getting)...

i miss everyone in KCK...

wanted to study but after searching some materials for baby, felt so tired... and decided to sleep.. just as procrastinating... nvm... shall mug soon.. pls bug me to mug...

yawnzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz -i'm dreaming of a lovely work environment tml-

1314

hm... suddenly wanna blog.. but dunno what to blog about... everyone is rushing project... or school work... cannot tok to me.. so figured i shall do something meaningful - continue enhancing my blogskins.. =)

my only food today was an apple... and only drink was the water from my bottle.. aren't i gd....

my injured toe while clubbing ytd nite... some buggers stepped on me..

just finished bathing.. and decided to read an email to my mummy... about men and women.. darn hilarious.. =) she was laughing too.. gd to see her laugh!!!

and after making her laugh... i got to know that mummy bought a new ipod for sister!!!! argh!!! so unfair... i din get anything from her for b'dae.. and sister get it even before her b'dae... UNFAIR!!! i wan one too.. but i won't bug her for it... cuz of the financial status we are in now... doing that will increase her burden... =)

can't believe i'm so totful... gonna go have my fantastic salmon now... - b'dae gift from mummy...


post some pictures for u guys to see

okie.. just change abit of my blog skin... decided to make it so complicated... anyway... dun ask me change font colour or what.. just read...

those who wan photos tag my blog or sms me or msn me or call me.. DUN EMAIL ME!!!

getting crazy... barely hear from u each day... only when i sms u then i will hear from u... baby... i miss u... do u?

-wanna hug u for a long long time-

this post is specially for Desmond Huang Wei Qiang a.k.a Baby... lol =)

thanks for every single things u did for me, u paid for me.... for all the "atoms"... and "molecules"…

thanks for the "spirit fingers" too... lol

but the main thing is.. thanks for my pynk PSP... my past few months of so many, many, many, many, many, many stuffs.. got to always ask u to pay for my cab fare home... like so many times that i lost count... lol… prolly can accumulate up to $500 bucks already or even more.. haha… the first time u came to meet me was already by paying for my cab fare home after performance… OMG!!! Haha!!!

thanks for my bbq and my chalet... which cost-ed u a bomb… big bomb… and thinking that over there u prolly have to pay for some stuffs again… =)

thanks for the stuffs u bought me.. I give u the list… lol...tigger clock….the luggage… the sony MP3… the black blouse.. if u rmb… =) the bronze Disney coins… the soft toys (the one big pig, one small pig, one monkey, one tweety bird… 2 bonus toys) u caught for me from the big candy land.. la la la.. the bag of unfinished mentos and other variety of sweets… the 3 pairs of earrings u bought… my Logitech mouse…

thanks for the 2 overseas trip u brought me to too… lol..

first trip was Malaysia… u brought me to ur frenz place.. although din have a good nite rest.. but it was happening.. we literally gamed whole nite… second day finally got a hotel… then rest so much better… and u paid for most of the hotel… then the coach back… and the stuffs we spent in Malaysia.. was actually quite a lot.. the chewing gums.. then the indoor theme park… u paid too.. the photos we took… all the rides we sat on… the drinks u bought…

then we went sentosa to meet ur parents… spent on cab fare there again.. lol… spent on the canoe… spent at ur fren’z pub…

then the second trip was hong kong… second day at disney land u already bought me a lot of stuffs… for me, for my siblings.. so much then on the last nite, we had to get another luggage already… the PSP itself was already like.. O M G!!! then my mickey and Minnie mouse sweets…my pynk winter jacket… my umbrella… the eeyore bag… see.. so much.. can’t finish listing them all sia...

then in Singapore got so much too… a lot on good food… on all the soft drinks.. on cigs… on movies… on gaming… on playing pool.. on prata-s… on mutton soup… on macs… on so many things I cannot finish listing again… lol

and u know what… I am only at the 471th word up to this point…. Tell me how to reach 1000 words sia.. lol…

thank u for helping me with my WISP projects too… u were very helpful when u know my group mates din help much… and now it is ur turn.. should u require any help just ask me.. alrights? I’ll be more than glad to help.. lol…

baby.. anyway.. it’s 1.12am already.. I have work and school tml… I am friggin’ sleepy… lol… later start blabbering.. and at this point… I have only 557 words.. which is like wow already… I will make sure I will edit this by wed morning 12am… till it reaches 1000 words..

but it isn’t the 1000 words that matters… just rmb… wo zhen de hen xie xie ni.. love u baby… =)

hugs!!! (spare me okie? =P) 1.38AM

continuing...

right at this moment now.. i miss baby alot... he's having lesson.. and the freaking weather is so cold.. hope baby is not shivering anymore... >_<

me shall continue to shiver.. lol

hugs!!! (spare me again? =P) 1.42PM

continuing...

and now that chalet is over... i have more things to thank u for...

since the start when we checked-in, u already started spending money on my food... but i did too =) then on cab fare here and there..

then at the chalet itself.. you estimated to have spent about another 100 bucks or was it 200?... it was just uber lot.. cuz i din withdraw any cash so kept using yours conveniently.. which i know u wun mind but whine.. =)but i know u did it for me anyway...right?

then after dinner with wilson, we went to the arcade and u caught this soft toy for me, a black cat... (no photos yet.. to be uploaded soon).. my frenz came, u played mj with them and lost quite a bit... for that i also considered spendings on me i guess...

u then spent more money on the bbq day itself... for the cab fare to go to mcritchie(however you spell it)for our performance... then the bike rental for teaching to me how to ride the bike.. apparently, u were a fierce teacher but a rather gd one.. i can paddle one aux. without anyone holding finally after 12 friggin' yrs of learning.. i know paddling that lil bit was lousy but i will continue to learn less the mosquitoes of cuz...

then other spendings included 3 bags of charcoal, 2 bags of ice, 1 pair of tongs, rubber band which i bought without ur consent.. sorry =P, and we bought alot of cigs throughout the whole chalet...

then on last day, when we went back, din spend much already... cuz i paid for most of the expenses already... but it’s alright bcuz i have already squeezed u dry enuff that for the next two months i gonna support u... =) i promised... 2 months only that i can afford.. haha..

anyway it was my best b'dae chalet ever... cuz i only had this one.... and u made it happened for me... thanks baby... HUGS!!

at this point I’ve already completed this 1000 words blog entry for u baby 12.57PM

daring... but i like it.. rather.. loved it.. it's my turn the next time..

it's been some times since i blogged... all the work and nite classes making me into a zombie...

was at jh's b'dae party at chillz bar.. =) pretty fun i guess... anyway jh din change a single bit... but lifes changed... looking at ourself.. no one changed but lifes changed.. lol ironic.. lol... then anyway his frenz and "brothers" were all there.. lol... his drunk face OMG! he better rmb i sang b'dae song for him.. lol..

anyway hope he had a good b'dae...

know baby was a lil bored ytd... thanks for accompanying me.. =D hope u at least had some fun too...

gonna go back to snoring..zzZZZzzZZZ

been to zoo today

finally.. so fun. =) whole loads of fun.. thanks to u my darling..

kinda tired.. but decided to blog...

some people are just pests... big-time pests... or maybe they dunno the meaning of "an fen shou ji"

Note to cindy:
u know sometimes i really dun like toking to u... cuz u nv listen.. always have to resort to putting it on the blog... but.. once again.. i tell u.. dun bother abt those girls who flocks ard him.. was once like u... getting sensitive and stuffs.. and jealous.. then realized that doing tt is the fastest way to losing him.. have trust in him.. now at times i still do get a lil sensitive and jealous.. alil bitttt.. lol.. but i trust him... cuz we love one another just like u love mike.. it's the trust that both of u have... maybe he's at fault... or maybe it's not what u think... well.. dun give him anymore reasons to find other girls...



love needs no boundaries... <3

me self-obsessed... new clothings..
















-then again...............................................................................................-

i'm fine and baby's sick.. Yloved baby's shock face on monday when i went over.... cuz i was not expected.. supposed to be working.. lol.. his face.. omg.. just so cute.. but sick and tired.. -heartaches-

now baby okie le.. me feeling kinda headache again.. lol.. cycle.. but this will heal soon.. still have antibiotics...

my face now clear of pimples... however!!! face peeling quite badly.... can someone help me... listen to bb, drink alot of water.. but still cannot.. maybe i nv drink enuff..

tired
-off to bed-

"dong dong dong"... it's 12 midnite now... i've become a simple cinder girl... who wash and cleans the house... and have to sleep in this room infested with not insects but soft toys =) and with no aircon and fan... (no fan due to that irritating bro of mine who lost some parts of the fan while playing it when mummy was cleaning it)

then tml morning i will be awaken by not my animal frenz and birds chirping but mummy's nagging.. lol... then gotta head down to baby's. OMG...

one whole week of work.. and studies.. barely saw him... miss him so much.. and saw how much he missed me.. i just din want to leave him today.......

today first day of work.. first bloop - dunno which level was my workplace @.

still working.. second bloop - i dunno.. lol... just keep doing sales and more sales invoices.. people there ain't tt frenly... or maybe i'm too new.. they can't adapt.. or prolly they just can't be bothered to be.

third bloop - i still dunno... had classes at SIM. the lecturer.. i dun understand... weird... but nvm.. economics... analysis.. difficult.. but saw a fren.. lucky.. not so bad.. some others from NP too... but not familiar... alot of pretty faces.

hm... then baby came to fetch me... yak and yak non stop... then all the jokes... lol.. super stressed and miss baby alot.. had macs.. then headed home..

i'm all worn out for today...

-ming tian hui gen hao-

sick sick.. been sick for quite some time.. then on thursday nite, it just got worst... sore throat... woke up at 4 plus and 6 plus on friday morning... drank lots of water din help.. lost my voice... but tt day was determined to see baby... so regardless of everything i went.. cuz i think my body is strong enuff to take all these.. and baby's immune system is high so wun get affected... then got there realized i was getting worst... but still played with baby... at nite before dinner i slept a lil... then baby took my temperature and stuffs, gave me a panadol.. then dragged me down to see doctor.. OMG!! all the pills... then baby say "i ask doctor give u jab, once and for all.. everything will be okie." i nearly cry out la.. hate jab.. but bcuz baby say must listen... lucky thing, doctor say no need jab... throat infection is tonsilities. then fever was 38.9degrees. u can't imagine how many different pills and syrup i have in total - 6 or 7 i think. then rested the whole nite... baby din sleep the whole nite just to ensure that i woke up to eat my med on time.. love him so much!

went to jurong east ytd - business edge to sign the agency contract... then on the way back at dover, i got out of mrt cuz nearly fainted in the mrt.. think is due to my exhuastion, the lack of oxygen in the cabin... too many people and i was standing... then sat at the station platform thinking that awhile later i will be fine.. so tried to move in to the next coming train but din get better, so sat back down again.. called baby instead of mummy, mummy too far.. then baby rushed down.. looking at him scolding and all, i know he's worried... sorry baby for making u worried.. then he sent me home and then went to buy ai xin porridge for me... eat le had medicine then it rained quite heavily.. so he stayed and help sister to pack her books.. think she was too happy to have someone packing for her... then i eventually fell asleep.. then baby left
then slept thru'out.. woke up to have dinner only... but appetite not tt good..

throat still kinda painful... hope everything will be okie.. rashes coming out again.. argh!!!

thanks baby for these few days.. yi ding shi lei huai ni le... hao ai ni! =D

it all takes times...
everything needs time...
everyone needs time.. and u know what?

i need time now to get outta this house... cooping up in this lil' room of mine makes me go crazy... facing my brother doesn't makes things better... he is just a noise producer who gives me burden...

anyway, was in the mood of writing poems.. some sentences may not be originally mine..

I don't know how we get into these fights.
After them I look back at the ashes
More shocked than hurt, as when a light plane crashes,
Slanting numb through strange, unearthly lights.
Oh, how I wish I could get off that plane
Rushing to its rendezvous with tears!
Rage is but a mask for my shy fears.
Yet I would die before I caused you pain.

How can I know so surely that I'll love you
No matter what the future has in store?
Time is like a cave in which our torches
Show only the circumference of our minds.
But love is will far more than it is passion,
Though passion may at first sustain the will.
One chooses love the way one chooses faith
Because that is the way that heaven lies.

My love for you is vaster than the ocean,
More rich in loveliness than coral seas.
I could no more relinquish it than let go
Willingly the precious gift of life.

I want to make you smile as you make me.
I wish you saw my thoughts right through my eyes.
You ask me what I'm thinking. I can't tell you.
You are the stars, and I the empty skies.
In me there is a yearning ever flowing
That needs to reach an end that never comes.
I cannot be myself without you with me.
This is a truth no wisdom ever plumbs.

You laugh, and say that I'm your personal angel,
And this is what I want so much to be.
The beauty of my life is like a passion
That blows right through the person that you see.

just like u, i try to change for u.. no matter how difficult it is i keep trying.. i dun just see the bad side of u.. tt's so not true.. i also see the good in you.. but u only notice me when i see the bad side of u... sometimes u prolly assume too much.. and i know most of the times i am so sensitive..

the things that u like to do, i will like too.. prolly i can't do it.. but still i enjoy being ard u to enjoy the things u enjoy doing.. i can't help but think that u were unhappy thru'out most of the times being with me... really hurt... but i dunno what to do.. as much as i want this to work out..i really dunno... sorry to make u feel so helpless.. lose track of urself and stuffs... i know u care... i know u really do.. i care too.. as much as i dunno how much it is... sorry that i'm not giving u enuff space to breathe...

no one is perfect baby... for u, i will continue to change to the woman u see as perfect too... the perfection lies in the eyes of the beholder.. for like what i have on msn... "You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"...

everytime when i'm feeling happy, sad, worried, frustrated, excited, anxious, etc... i will feel like blogging.. guess what kind of feeling am i feeling now? i hAve no idea either. a feeling like nv before. maybe this is the point of time when the sea is flowing camly into the river banks - plain happiness and calm... then prolly after sometime, the sea might get all excited and happy then the water will gush into the river again... altho i like it exciting n happy, it is nt always like thAt.

la mer bleue profonde est vous,
na da hai jiu shi ni,

l'eau en mer est votre amour,
da hai li de shui jiu shi ni de ai,

les banques calmes de fleuve est moi,
na tiao xiao he jiu shi wo,

l'eau dans le fleuve est mon coeur.
xiao he li de shui just shi wo de xin.

woah.. can't describe my feelings today.. a part of me - happy, a part of me - tired, a part of me - sorry... but mostly happy i guess.

too many things done and too lil time.. so shall not give details...

thanks my dearest baby... for everything...

ToT of The day-You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly-

i dun bear grudges if u dun rmb... i just got sick and tired of asking u out and u give me last min excuses that u wanna accompany ur bf or whatsoever.. dun come crying to me next time if u have problems.. i have my own problems too.. i can sit there patienty listening to u.. but u can't.. u either seems too distracted or what.. but anyway.. u know what u did.. i dun have to explain further..

i always ask u and the others out... the others nvm... u r my closest fren.. and yet trust u to not understand me... kinda disappointed.. but nvm.. guess i expect too much of ya.. not only towards u. but prolly i ask too much of people ard me.. tt's why there's always so much arguements...

girl.. gimme awhile.. u r always my loveliest fren.. and abt the thing u told me the other day... i understood already... the reason why he always goes out early and return home late might be bcuz u have been choking him up too much... cuz from what i've heard from him... and i know.. he still loves u... just hate being nagged at whenever he reach home.. nag less and love more my dear.. i know u gonna say i'm liddat as well.. but girl.. i am trying to change and apparently it's working out quite well i think.. nag less and love more.. okie?

--baby, this is for you. i treasure the times with u.. and i know u love me. we gonna make things work.. i know love will find a way.. love you.. --

how do u think i felt hearing that...

aches here and there... helppp...

i dun wan to leave now... i dun wan... i wanna stay here... dun force me to go Aust........................

hm... family got a lil harassment from a boy... looks ard the age of 13-16... abit of mental problem too i guess... hm... police came and left... guess it should be safe for now..

baby mood better le.. hugs baby... love you

hm... body feels so heaty... have 2 big ulcer in the walls of the left side of my mouth... pain pain...

this morning was so... i dunno how to describe...so hurtful... the only thing i wanted to do then was to run to des to hug him... and let him tell me everything's alright... and he did... thanks.. u made me laugh so much today.. thanks baby...

i love you

sometimes i find living to be a very tiring thing... how do u like it almost every morning when u wake up, with someone by ur bed not to dote on u but to nag at u, scream at u.. saying things that wasn't true at all..

everytime, the quarrel, the "pep" talks, the arguements only circulates around the most basic topic-my studies...

since primary 6, decisions made by him was already wrong... choosing the 6 schools which i apparently couldn't get in. eventually got posted to an even lousy school.. my score for 273(with proof). to me, when i dun like something, it's really difficult for me to do it well. i din like the school.. so every year i dropped class.. 1A, 2B, 3C, 4C.... if they had a 4D for express, i would definitely be in there.. i knew......... but i still tried my best to study hard and achieve good results and i got results that could have actually brought me to JC for O's.

then i beg them so hard for me to go Poly instead...but there's always a catch... the catch is, he's gonna choose the course for me... i din like it... but i had to let him do it.. (dun say i could have rejected him from helping me, cuz i couldn't) give and take... cried alot then... felt that my freedom was all lost... he chose Acc as first choice.. after which the rest of the 11 choices were nearly alike... and i din like it... i hated accounts ever since sec sch to the core. just bcuz i put in so much effort pulling my result up for Maths and POA, he decided to put me into that course...

so when i joined NP, even when i knew accounts was one of the best course in there, i still wasn't happy, cuz it's not what i like. nvm.. i studied.. i studied hard... i promised myself that no matter how much i dun like it, how hard its gonna be, i'll still make sure i pass every sem at least and not repeat.. to my expectation i did that.. today results released... i officially graduated without repeating any sem. obviously, he still wasn't happy... feels that i could have done better... if i din have band, baracuda and other stuffs. they weren't supportive of my other activities. with just one hand, i can count the number of times they came to watch baracuda performed.

they expect me to stop baracuda once i enter uni, but i wun... and i dun wan to... it was baracuda that spurs me on to continue studying in NP, baracuda that provided so much fun, laughter and tears for me and baracuda that gave me hope to study... so much it is to me that when he asked:"when would u stop going for baracuda?"

my answer was :"until it no longer exist."

then he thinks that i dun help out at home.. which i did but they were too busy scolding, nagging and working to notice it. i dun like to do things and make sure they see it to acknowledge it. i do what's right and comfortable for me. they see it, they're happy-fine. they dun see it, they complained-forget it.

they kept using my siblings as a pressure on me. sometimes really envy those single child family or the youngest of the family, cuz they dun have the pressure given by their parents that they must and have the responsibilities to take care and guide them. however, i guided my siblings but they themselves do not help themselves. so in the end, i'll still get the punishments.

just the day before, sister's results were out for her appeal. and then again, a mistake by him. but he just wun realize it. forget abt it.

i try to help out as much as possible. but at the same times, i need life too... yes.. prolly, i'm quite playful... but they would nv understand.

these stuffs happened so many times that i lost count and i dunno how to go abt it. everytime it's just the same old things.. the old man-conservative-pumpkin mind.

so much so much to say... so much so much stuffs going thru' my mind...

BB-thanks for providing me laughter and fun, guys.

baby... thanks for calling me, even if u dunno what to say.. it's okie.. just be there to listen... let me "whine". *hugs*

well... no one's free tml.. guess i'll prolly stay home... rot and rot.. and bb's staying at home... hazmi asked to accompany him and conrad to his school... think if it.. kinda far.. lol... lets see how is it tml...

watching autumn tale these 2 days... feels so sad... the show is sad... very sad... okie.. i'm quite an emo person... 2 person who loves each other so much should always stay together and not be separated...

(actually i also dunno what to blog but just wanna blog)

bb took lots of the night scene pictures... he's really quite serious abt his camera.. at times i'm also kinda confused over the things he is trying to explain to me.. but i try to understand as much as possible. =) sorry baby if i got a blur face... =) dun think i'm not interested or what... tt's not what it is.. =D but the pictures baby take is really good... and it was drizzling heavily... bb's serious face can be cute at times..

happy 5th month anni...^^

laughed alot today... and my new piano!!! yes!!! my new piano... S$11,000 (whr the hell did my daddy got the money)

last but not least... my self-obsessed photo..

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i'm back!!! from HONGKONG...YES!!! shopping and more shopping... bought lotsa stuffs... but heard from them if go during Aug or Sep would be alot better... cuz SUMMER!!!! more clothes suitable for Singapore's weather. Photos will be posted ASAP... but i must post one photo first...




YES!!! a rare pink PSP... all the way from Hong Kong and from Baby Desmond!!! Thank you... Muacks!

*dun get jealous... =D

this entry is only for DESMOND HUANG WEI QIANG...

firstly, we are still how we used to be... and we will always be.. prolly a lil of bickering which i think is healthy... prolly a lil of seriousness which i think is healthy too.

yes... maybe sometimes i contradict myself... i find myself contradicting also... over certain things i say.. but i know wo hai shi ai ni de... when i said i found the one... yes... i've indeed found the one.. and tt's u... u have been a gr8 listener, advicer, helper, lover... everything gd that i can think of.

when i hang up the phone and the entry u read... yes.. u wondered... but the blog entry wasn't exactly for u.. except for the "poem"(for u). tt's why baby... stop thinking so much... and lets move on...

u r still my baby... u will always be.

(if it is too small, click on the picture)

at this moment.. i feel a sudden of mixed feelings.. over what.. i dunno...

i'm always wrong.. no... nv right... to most people...

wo lei le... xu yao yi ge neng kao de zhu de jian bang. wo zhao dao le, ke shi ni shi fo zhi dao ma?

*huggs myself and piggy... *

this is the best class i would ever have in Ngee Ann... no one can ever replace this class.. (missing people in picture)

was playing game with baby... i just seem so lousy all the times... no matter how hard i try... it's not abt the game.. suddenly just tot of my dad... at times i really wanna blame him for not giving me the life i need when i start to understand what's happening ard... yes... maybe some people might say i already had the best before... and yes... baby.. u ask me to move on... only u r helping me to move on... thanks baby...

dun feel helpless... cuz u have been most helpful... and i love u... u know it... if u din appear.. i prolly wun be whr i am now.. thanks to u... for everything..

feel so much better after telling u all this... arigato baby...

wanna be nice and this is all i get.. yes.. i had faults.. how abt u... it takes 2 hands to clap...

so sick-physically
so tired-physically and mentally...

lucky... baby, u r always there to let me know everything is alright... thanks...

did a quiz...

TRUST a very difficult word to explain its meanings...

that is why........

Estatic... the word to describe my feeling now. =D my smile can't go away...

me and des went to play arcade at PS just now.. and the only levels we went to were B1, 3 and 7...

3rd was to have swensens. had apple crumble.. it was just so sweettttt....
B1 was to withdraw money...
7 was to play the Big Sweet Land Game... =)

at first caught 2 toys already.. then after which we walked away... then des decided to catch 2 more in exchange for a very big piggy soft toy.. lol. this is really too many... but i must say he is damn pro.. he used less than $100 to get 4 soft toys after which 2 of it were used to exchange for the big one... plus the sweets... u can't imagine how much sweets i have now.. super diabetics diet... lol.

below are the toys and the sweets...



thanks baby... dunno what else to say but really thanks and love ya..

it's rather late and yes.. i'm still up TRYING to drain out my tireness, empty my brains and put AUDIT2 into it... sounds like some recipe... nobody likes this kinda recipe... it's neither sweet or salty... not to my liking at all...

gladly... this is my friggin' last paper for my whole of 3 yrs in poly... another 4 more hours and i'll be in the exam hall freezing... Zz... i wonder how much is the utilities bill (the air-con portion) of SIM each month.

Shocked to see someone at my door step at 3.30am... she came with the question of why do people fall in love.. i couldn't answer her.

Conversation:

Jas: OMG!!!

I hugged her.

Liana(crying): why do people fall in love?

I looked at her for awhile.

Jas: I dunno. What's wrong?

In the living room.

Liana(still crying): he dun wan me anymore. he says he hates me. after 3 yrs.

Jas: 3 yrs is short. it's his bad luck not to want u.

Liana described what happened.

Jas: give him up. no point hanging on to a rship whereby he can't provide you with anything esp. love which is the most basic. he doesn't treasure you. someone elses does.

Blah Blah Blah!

Liana felt happier then tok about my problem later on.

she just left... and i'm still studying... and sister is not home yet... daddy just called me asking where is she.. i bet he's calling her now to scold her.

Shall go back to mugging... the time now is friggin' 4.22am

somethings are just not meant to be. cannot be forced... one-sided is bad too...

i still got one blardy paper tml - audit... and i'm having a f***ing headache now. sorry for my crudeness... can't help it.. this is just the day whereby my mood is just not right... hope tml at 11am, i'll be alot happier... lets keep our fingers crossed.

going to continue mugging.... lemme work hard...

-bu zai le-

woah hoh.... just read haz's blog... sia la.......... why got one entry just abt me sia... sia la........... all my un-glam photos.... OMG la.. lol... later people see already all kanna scared off by me... especially those that u guys wrote on my leg... omg la...

if u wan to see the super funny photos abt me... look for me... lol... it's not something u will see often... =)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
This portion is everything i had thru'out this whole of 3 yrs in poly
-in order fr Year 1 to Year 3... so no one supposed to get jealous or whatsoever-

my poly life is gonna come to an end in 3 days time. (provided i dun fail, which i actually hope to, so i can accompany u guys longer)... i've 2 more exam papers to go... but i just have to do this first.

Yr 1 04/05- Kewei, KaiYan, 1A08, Chiu, Amanda, Andrew, Kian Siong, Sam, Ming Wei, Wen Bin, Law Fatt, Sunil, Gim Kiat, Rizal and any more that i can't name... the very first few people i knew in poly... making everything possible for me... all the quarrels and laughters. thanks once again! u guys r being loved!

Yr 2 05/06- Kewei, KaiYan, 1A08, Chiu, Sam, Wenbin, Law Fatt, Rizal, Matin, Hazmi, Baracuda Peepz, Lee Geok Lian, Eugene, Lionel, Fauzi, Jasper, Cheng Yee, Mei Chen, Shalene, Jojo, Winnie, Jia Jun, Ger and many more... all these people esp the last 3 i knew from outside poly made me feel that i'm always not alone and they are gr8 people who always make things happen for me...

Yr 3 06/07- Kewei, Kai Yan, Yi Chiang, Liner, Desmond, Winnie, Jia Jun, Ger, Sam, Wenbin, Law Fatt, Matin, Hazmi, Baracuda Peepz, Michelle, Conrad and many more... some of these people appeared only in the later part of my 3rd yr... but they created alot of fun and memories for me... in attachment, in sch, in life and in heart...

seriously without all these people... my life in poly for past 3 yrs would be boring... thanks to all of u guys... for all the bad i apologise and lets forgive and forget.. for all the gd, lets keep it in our heart deep down as the most wonderful memories. you peepz lemme walk thru my 3 yrs being very contented. i love all of you guys!!!

this is gonna be a short entry....

today was a perfect day... everything was very very very gd... wo yi jing hen jiu mei you zhe zhong gan jue le... xie xie ni... *hugs*

you gave me what i din get for the recent past...

thanks...

happy valentines' day!

May all couples stay together forever...

tell me now... i know it's difficult not to do tt... but shui shi ni de nu peng you... seems like i'm not the only one... sorry tt i like to assume... sometimes i can't help it... once again... sorry... for searching thru ur smses, cuz i rmb u saying it was okie... dun mind me flipping thru and stuffs.. so i tot, if u were a changed person, you wouldn't have anything to hide... nvm... i dunno is it me, or whatsoever... but i gonna forgive you one last time... i'm serious... haven't i put in enuff into this rship? haven't i? i am a girl and i have feelings... spare a tot for me... while you r doing tt, you know how am i feeling? i said this before... i really dun wan to repeat it to you face to face..tt's why i'm doing this.. if u read this... plz stop doing anything tt will hurt me directly or indirectly... it takes 2 person to love one another whole heartedly by being faithful...

i love you

lemme know if i'm wrong....

here i am studying in clubhouse... i really need support... whatever support i deserve...

having a lil fever still and headache.. feeling so stress.. i know i'm giving the stress to myself.. but nothing is helping...

WORRIED! STRESSED! and everything... argh!!!

there's something i really feel like shouting out to someone... but i shan't... cuz it wun help... or so i think... said it nicely before... din get thru that person. so nvm... keeping it in my heart is always the best.. to avoid any possibilities of quarrels, arguements, and everything...

just wanna be the only one you love...

i miss baby.. OMG... it's true.. only 6 hrs and i cannot take it... miss baby already... lol... well.. but both of us mugging... mug mug mug...

when we see each other then we will realized how much we miss each other. =)

Baby jia you for exams! everyone out there too... =)

haven't been blogging lately.. final exams are coming.. so ya... this is my last semester in this dreadful course... but i must thank the course that i got to know my baby. thanks taxation 2 in particular.. lol..

been quite hectic lately... studying, classes, revision lecture, baracuda performances... and alot more.. just ytd, BB performed at Rollin' Wok... a rest. in NTU..or was it NUS.. whatever... only 7 of us could perform... so there was me, desmond, matin, hazmi, haris, norain and siraj... it was fun though.. but not "high". then that hazmi and baby and matin was actually disturbing me and norain by making the puking sound... making both of us wanna puke.. tears cuddled up on my eyelid... and guess what.. i was eating the super disgusting "drunken chicken"... and it has some gelatine inside a shot glass... which haris say was nice. and he had 3 shots. imagine it.. yew!!! disgusting... couldn't take it... then they still continue to disturb... nvm abt that..

then the tpt back to school was like OMG... lol... our instruments were placed in a lorry... lorry used to fetch frozen food.. and everyone except Hazmi and Matin were like at the front seats getting all so comfy... while us, we were FREEZZZINGGGG... brrr... they eventually off it and stuffs liddat... funny... just so funny... was so cold that i tried so hard to talk but felt so lethargic..

then got back to clubhouse... but din go hm str8 away... we chat, gossip, bitch about everything... and we joke and laughed... toking about some band matters... just dunno why it has became liddat... all so screwed up.. or so i think...

alrights... supposed to be like studying now... but dun seems to be able to concentrate... mummy's missing... and dunno where is she now... just can't understand why adults behaving like kids...

i think what baby say is true... the older generation are de-generating... pls dun let that happen to me so soon... i still wanna enjoy...
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anyway... these 2 days with baby... was like OMG... dunno how to explain the whole feeling... it's like "high"!!!! OMG... you know what i mean baby.. lol. just couldn't control myself... rang wo men get high!!!!

宝贝， 我只是想要一个很简单的恋爱。
我要你对我好，就如我对你的爱。
我不知道要用设么方式告诉你我永远都不要离开你。
或许这有点幼稚， 可是统统都是发之内心的。
这段日子和你在一起，有无数的快乐与心疼。
可是你让我感受到我从未有的感觉-关怀。

自从认识了你，你让我感受到我以为我不会再有的感觉。
那就是爱。

谢谢你 ，宝贝。

我爱你。

答应我只能对我一个人好，爱我一个人。除了我以外，不要让其他人进入你的心。

and more photos...







and the most loving couple...

hm... sorry that my blog's been stagnant... been kinda busy lately..

performances, studying, project, dating and gaming with baby.. lol..

just so busy... everything's been going pretty well... except at times things dun work the way i expected it to be.. cuzing some anxiety and anger in me... but it's over...

it's just baby that i wan.... i need... and today you said you can't live without me.. it's the same for me too.. u knew i've put in every single bit of love into this rship... wan it to be a good one... a everlasting one.. pls make it happen for me for i know you can...

anyway.. know you guys craving for more photos.. lol.. so here it is..