most of my ex bfs dun like the way i care for them.... tt's why most of them left.. and i left some because i know that they dun like being controlled or i would never be able to care for them... cuz they just dun get it... so 1 after 1 i try to change... i try not to be so naggy... not to control them... i dun exactly control them... i just dun wan them to do certain thing not because i'm a spoiler or i'm no fun... but it hurts them... and it hurts me even more.. even if it doesn't hurt me, it hurts their family... but they just dun get it... so i keep thinking it's me.. so i really wanna change.. but seems like it's not working.. i'm doing it to my bf now.. SHIT!! i dunno if he's regretting anything... or feeling unhappy about it.. but i really want us to work... want it so badly that i dun exactly know what i should do and what i shouldn't.. his friends probably think i'm a prick or something... so for bringing this further to the next stop, i'm telling my bf this.. do wad u think is right and if it makes u happy cuz if u r then i'm.. but just one thing, if u gonna do harm or u know that it might hurt, bring me along. - this is an order!

I LOVE YOU BRYAN HO!