REALLY REALLY VERY FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!

When was the last time i posted an entry?? 10000 yrs ago?

why am i being treated like that? why must you lie? why must you hide? why must you purposely ignore?

ever since ur company started, you and i became even more busy.. you busy with "trying" to earn money and i am working very hard to earn money. but however hard i work, i always keep some time for you. i make sure i will meet you if i know we haven't been meeting for many days. you say you miss me but cannot see me. i think it's all bull shit.. if i can make the effort to go down to your house regardless of the journey, regardless of the time and regardless of the taxi fare i have to pay, why can't you do the same? i'm not asking you to do the same. but if you miss me, dun make it sound like i am too busy to meet you. because one thing for a face you know that it's you. You are too lazy to travel to meet me. You only want people to revolve around you but you never want to do that, even though you thought you did.

After a whole day of busy work, i would call you hoping to have a little chat with you longer while waiting for bus or something. but it never happens. However, after your "busy" day at work, i always hear you going for a drink and going for late night supper. Now you know why i complain abt the longer chat i want? It never happens because you are too busy playing with your friends.

The next day after ur late night out you will give me an attitude as if i've disturb you for a whole day, chiding me "didn't you know i work until very tired?" but you know what?? Actual fact is you went home late. Too tired or drunk from all the playing and drinking then you wanted to sleep in late, but blame on my stupidity for calling you at the wrong time while you are still having all sleep. Then when you are all awake, you rush to go out to work again, because this time you really have to go studio for REAL work but you are gonna be late or late. Again, you will start to blame everyone around you but yourself. I would just say it's the bad luck of those people who speaks to you at that point of time. Their bad luck for speaking to you and getting scolded for no reasons. Then when you reach work, you will start thinking that you got not enough time to work or whatsoever. But the actual fact again is because, you spent more than half the time sleeping and only left with that much time to do whatever you have to do for that day. So who can you blame?? Then you reach work so late, so ur excuse of going home late again is inevitable.

Even though ur scoldings or black face after you wake up is not as often anymore, but other stuffs are getting worst.

Then also if you don't want people to disturb you, you would off your phone. But i seriously don't think you should do that to me as well. cuz i'm your gf. I'm not stupid. I can understand and piece stuffs together. If you can see, i'm starting to give up. Not bothered to meet you as much. cuz i see no worth anymore. I dunno why am i still holding on to whatever and taking whatever nonsense you are throwing at me.

And also the girls... i definitely have my reasons for being unhappy with the girls around you. You should know it the best. Thru'out this 3 years with me, what have you been doing? what are you still doing? i know. i'm not blind. i just keep quiet and be ignorant. But there's a limit to everything. i hope you do know that. I also hope you do know how many chances i've given you. which girl can actually be so forgiving to boyfriends who cheats on them. You may think "cheating" is a big word to be used on your case. But i can tell you it's not because replying to a lovey dovey sms from other girls using lovey dovey words are bad enough. Enough to hurt your gf.

You know why i didn't give up on you? Because i thought you could change. and thought you would change after awhile. I thought it was just like for the first few months of the rship that you would still be that "playful" but apparently i was wrong. There wasn't any improvements as all. I'm tired.

I'm not saying that only you make all these mistakes or only you are wrong. I err too. I have times that i may nag too much that maybe you cannot take it or times that i may be too demanding that you cannot take it. But i don't think these reasons are good enough for you to go around playing.

Seriously reflect on your time, your attitude and your work, your driving license, your company, your studies, and most importantly your life. Cuz everything stated above is part of your life now.

7 habits ot effective people ---- i hope it will help SERIOUSLY

Been busy... still working at the American Club. Fun.. The kids are quite adorable too. Not all though...

many things happened. Major and Minor. But all not worth mentioning. Except a particular thing. I didn't go Thailand in the end.

Firstly because H1N1 still spreading.
Secondly because i am not some irresponsible people who only thinks of having fun all the time instead of going to NDP practice.
Thirdly becuase i want to compensate myself by earning more money to go on a better trip.

Better still. Now i am one step closer to my Europe trip which i promise to bring my mummy there.

AND I HAVE NOT BEEN TAKING CAB MUCH!!!! Compare to last time when i still take cab everyday and everywhere, now i take bus no matter how long the journey is, i get up on time to get to places i need to go and only take cab when it was raining. and it only rained once in the past few weeks at my area. So i saved even more money! Hoo-ray for Jaslyn!

i have not watch transformers. so feel like watching... seriously.....

just minutes ago, i bite my tongue.

*some contradictions in mind. should i carry on or stop everything, before it gets even deeper. so deep that i might die? i'm starting to feel tired.*

Irritating!

Ya la... everyone is wrong... except you....

helping out others... to you... is also wrong.. you just continue to keep trying to find 1001 reasons to diss others businesses... just continue to try....

get a life man...

Wasted....

always have no time to update my blog... was busy with school, exams, etc, etc.

Hols just started and everything is going well.

But the recession is kinda hitting me badly. No money. no job for 2 weeks. finally gonna start work at The American Club next week onwards.

upload some pictures for you guys to see what i've been doing for the past few months.

Out with baby to Mr bean cafe with all my pretty and handsome friends too

M.A.C Cosmetics from baby for Birthday this yr. esp love the hello kitty eyeshadow!

Celebrating my 22nd birthday at all abt eve

Playing "Jenga Xtreme" with my sister - look at how excited she is =)

Going Haw Par Villa with Baby. =)

for the past few hrs, i've been sitting in front of my laptop, reading love stories and editing photos. Just found a website which does some work like photoshop. And it's free.

www.picnik.com - real cool

feeling damn down now... no appetite, no mood to study, pain in the tummy.

my mind tends to run wild...

other that doing all these nonsense, i'm also filling up the form for Drumzout Competition. My band is going to join Drumzout 2009.! Coolness! And i'm still negotiating abt the transport for my band's gig this sat with the logistics person... so irritating..

okie, blog later... gonna go rest my tummy and watch tv!!!

Thoughts...

Just think for a moment... sit down comfortably, no anger in the mind, no hatred in the heart, no distractions from any form of sources... just think... was it fair? or should i used the word-biased?

Weigh the importance... unless in the heart, there wasn't any importance in the first place.

Being fair was the issue that was being argued about, but when one side put in effort to stop... the other side started it all over again. So, what was those arguements about again??

Only those words meant for those people.

Then again, maybe it's the sensitivity issues... just like cold food with bad gums. But gums get better after visiting the dentist for cleaning and washing.

-tata-

Tons of updates...

Been kinda busy and not in the mood lately.

Am i just too idiotic or the rest are even worst? I guess the rest are even worst. They do not know the true meaning of friendship, and i realized... some weird beings become inhumane (maybe not so serious, just heartless maybe) as they grow older. I'm not saying the majority but rather just some weirdos. Maybe their definition of friendship means "i do know you, and when we say 'hi' and 'bye' to one another, it simply means that we are friends and we are having a friend-relationship". Sorry to say but that definition is wrong.. You are too superficial. Go 'wiki' it @ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friendship. Don't be lazy. I've even linked it up for you. It's just a click away to understand the true meaning of friendship in words. (In action, don't even bother. understand the words first)

*Just for fun - If you feel too bored with the website, feel free to browse the rest of the words at the side of the page. Guys would probably be interested in some words such as concubinage & courtesan.* LOL

On the lighter note, i just had a nice dinner and movieee with baby on sat evening. =) Bride Wars was awesome!! It's really a show for the best girlfriends in the world. It's played by 2 of the hottest actress in Hollywood - Kate Hudson & Anne Hathaway. Touching yet cheeky.

4.5 stars for the movieee!

Just celebrated my youngest sister's birthday ytd. I guess she's the luckiest of us all. I won't even bear to get myself a crumpler for my birthday, but i bought it for her. Baby chipped in $50 bucks too! Had Teppanyaki with family then the usual cake-cutting ceremony.

Awwwwwwww... so sweet... =)

Alright... tt's abt it.

*i love being with you, even just for the shortest time*

Busy Busy Busy

Everyone's been so busy... everyone seems busy... everyone's really busy...

things change... things happen... things turn-around...

It's never your wrong... cuz it's always all others...

speaking to thee... it's difficult... thou find time... or thou's not interesting....

Went to Chinatown today with mum and bro...

all the nice spots in chinatown and the crowd.... OMG....

Outside YUM CHA... Yummy yum yummm...


My bro trying out new year clothings... and i secretly took this shot...

my mummy explaining to this idiot what's that orange thing...

He's tired... (too fat)

Looking at the Modern Muah Chee

Yes... my fav...

Hahaha... the uncle damn funny... tot i taking him... so no shame...

The day ends when i head to my nest...

I NEED A BREAK...

oh god... whole of last week was freaking crazy...

monday morning - classes till 3pm/buy pants
monday night - VD prac till late

tuesday morning - Calling for transport
tuesday night - VD performed at St. James till late

wednesday morning - collect van/top up diesel/buy cashcard
wednesday night - VD performed at Fort Canning/Clarke Quay till super late

(the story between countdown night - wed to 1st day of new year morning - thurs: we were having the best PUNK RoCK SHOW ever!!! then i got lost for nearly 45 min after leaving Cuba Libre. Until Fadz and CL found me waiting by the Van for them. Then i broke down. Then we left to pick the rest up which in turn Baby shouted at me. then he broke down too... he was worried. Then Haris closed the boot of the van too hard the key broke into 2 pcs. and we got stranded there till tow truck came... then FAD studio keys' with Jia Hui and she went HOME. Baby, fadz, haris went to collect the key from her at Bukit Panjang. the rest sat outside the studio waiting for them. they came back with a PT. Sent some home then the rest waited till 8.30 to get home)

thursday morning - still stuck in studio
thursday afternoon - collect the duplicated keys from the guy who rent us the van/ went back studio
thursday night - went Night Safari to visit Siraj and have disgusting bongo burgers/pick CL to have supper

friday morning - open door for electrician/accompany mother to bring Jenson to first day of school. (he's a freak - Tallest)
friday night - went town to meet CL, Lala, Isaac, Ben to have dinner then drink and drink till late

finally saturday, i can have alone time with my baby!!!

Loves him alot...

okie... i go webcam with baby le!! =)