dun even know why am i blogging now... alot of stuffs were in my mind... then when i open to "create posts", everything is gone... or rather i dunno where to start from...

for once today i dun have to wear formal to school... NO PRESENTATION TODAY!!! -yeah- but doesn't mean that i got no more projects...

now slacking in clubhouse... time to slack a lil... exhausted.. wants no disturbance at this moment except to sleep, surf net and read blogs...

hm... then realized something.. then again... nvm... prolly just me being too overly sensitive... gonna have baracuda soon... but no one's here yet... wait wait wait...

i'm here and he's there... wonder what is he doing now... is he having fun? or r girls (esp. her) flocking ard him... hm... nvm... i trust him... and i know he bu hui dui bu qi wo de.

-so near yet so far-
-miss you-

u r not the only one who is tired... u r not the only one who is sensitive.. u r not the only one who feels unfair... u r not the only one..........................

taking me to this heights then telling me u r gonna throw me down... is that u?

anyway... wanna thank my sister for getting me my new eyelash curler.. really love me.. thanks girl...

-dead-

Lets hope today will be a fine day for me...

-Miss u Baby-
-yawns-

tears just keep flowing and flowing... everything is so blurry... so tired... need U to hold on to me...

so much stuffs to do... so much projects... haven't even started revising... i really dun wanna retain.. maintain my average results...

i dunno what else to do le... i'm on the verge of breaking down... then the things U say, makes me feel even worst... not i dun wanna hold on to it dearly... but at this moment i can't give u what u want.. i'm really so busy... just hope U would say u understand and tell me it's alrights... and that u will be there for me regardless of what... but u didn't... tell me what to do...

dun wanna do things i dun like.. dun force me to do things that i dun like... u know i dislike piano... getting my grade 8 was torturing enuff... i dun wanna continue even further... u can't understand me...

Baby... Hao Xiang Nian Ni... Hao Ai Ni... Ni Zhi Dao Ma........

-breakdown-

wanna run away from all these.............................................................................................................

-tired&loved-

had a pretty long day... and fun...

someone actually kept his "promise" and really came down all the way from BP down here to have breakfast with me early in the morning... hhahaz...

friggin' warm morning tho... then went for tax lesson... then i was suppose to present tutorial question 1 --> roleplay!!! (not what u guys think if that's what u guys r thinking)... it's just a roleplay between me and my classmate Simon... i supposed to be tax consultant advicing him if he can qualify for whichever eh... i dunno what... haha... my tax is super horrible...

then after school went to PS to get my dinner and sim card... yeepiieee... i got my sim card back... but NO PHONE!!!... hur hur... sorry if i whine alot.. but i really miss my phone...

then head back to school for baracuda practice... super fun as usual... and had a few new members... and i played bass.. hahaz.. happiezzzz!!!!

as usual gone to macs to slack... (rhymes eh) lol! then head for home...

-please take care of urself.. u r sick!!!-

tired... for the first time... i'm doing tax tutorial.. whahhaa... thanks to u... =P must be guai guai de... actually this is the second time i'm doing my tutorial...

3 more weeks to ExamsSSS.... stressSSSS and more gigs coming up... Sh*t...

just had a gig at Marina Mandarin... for some minister... can't rmb his name.. Abdullah something... whatever.....................

his wife was my fren's previous principal... cOoL... LoL!!

had some time before show start so went to play pool, i lost to kooch... win ton Hazmi.. then played mahjong... =) hahaz... went back to our holding area to realize it gonna be delayed for 30 more min or so, so the guys decided to play games... hahaz..




fun and tired... as usual.. slack at maCs then took a cab home...

-my night gonna end here-

doesn't u know he has a gf already?... have limits plsssssssss...... dun provide disturbance to others... some people are just liddat.. cannot keep their hands on themselves... wanna prob into others... or wanna separate others... blardy hell....

and the rest pls SHUT UP!!!! cuz it doesn't concern u at ALL!!!!... since u already wanna tell me then just say it... dun ask if i'm interested to know or not... but i prolly already know what u wanna say... so save it and get a life!

it's freaking tiring... all the projects, tutorials and stuffs are killing me!!! so gonna break down soon... jus need someone to be there holding on to me right now...

needa get back my sim card ASAP! after the top-up, i'm left with like a few cents... darn it... can't friggin' control my usage...

why is my heart beating so fast?....

stupid jaslyn... stop thinking so much...

u know it's nothing...

argh!!!!

Thanks for everything baby... u were gr8 and u r still gr8...

if i didn't meet ur expectations, then i'm so sorry...

be proud of me =D

*hugs*
*going on and on forever*

my darn phone has been lost for friggin' more than 8 hrs... i wan my phone back...

so gonna get screwed by mummy...

argh!!! first time i ever lost a f***ing phone... the phone was only with me for only like less than 6 months la...

sorry guys.. the captions with the pictures are wrong.. just figure it out urself.. lol

woah... busy busy busy!!! just got back home from camp at time now is 2.42AM!!! freaking exhausted.. but everything ended nicely, beautifully...

BB was gr8... everything was successful... had fun in camp with those guys.. and NRA was cool...

During Camp. . .



Me working on my project during camp



Wondering what this is? it's the lights without the metal casing --> whatever u call that.



Ops!! cheng liang got hit by the metal casing.



hahaz. gotcha... it was Zrain who hit him with it. Poor Cheng Liang...



and this is hazmi when he woke up i think.. =P



Me and Xiao Hui after putting all the make up...



can u see my hair!!! it's white =)



While waiting for out event. . .




There are actually alot more.. during rehearsals and stuffs.. but too lazy.. so ya.. =P hahaz...

-love u peeps-

yawns.. having this boring lecture.... the way she tok... kinda monotone... no life at all.. makes me feel so sleepy...

today had to cab to school due to :

1) heavy lappy
2) heavy bag with full of clothes for fri-sun
3) heavy shoe bag
4) light drizzle
5) sprained ankle (again!!!)
6) painful back (after effects of op)

nevertheless, i still got to school at 8 plus, the earliest thru'out my poly life i guess.

take off or continue landing.

lookedintothemirror

dunseejasanymore

seeasadlilgirlstaringatme

sheisnotglowinganymore

makeherglow

letherknowsheisnotalone

letherknowsheisbeingcherished

thankstothosewhocherishesher

shineonbaby

knowucareandimattertoyou

-glowing-

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! curb! curb! curb! curb! curb! curb! curb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun show it dun show it dun show it dun show it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was fun at first... then went to take a bus home... in the bus, saw this couple quarreling, then realized that i'm so lucky. cuz we din quarrel today. felt unwell in the bus too... now still not well...dunno why... anyone who reads my blog prolly can offer to accompany me to doc =P or i hope i'll feel better soon.

why are we created with feelings? i wish i had none. but i can't otherwise, i wun feel how i am feeling now --> emo, pek chek, happy, confused.

KOKA Black Pepper Crab Instant Noodle is fantastic!!!! had tt for dinner...

is it me who pushed u to the limits.. if it is, then i got nothing to say except sorry... cuz u were the one who said okie to me at first... it wasn't me who forced u to go out with me...

accept me for who i am, just like how i am accepting u. u want things this way, i have taken it... and am okie with it. i really dunno what to do already. tell me pls... ni zhi dao wo de xin li hai shi ai ni de. nan dao ni jiu bu neng jie shou zhe yang de wo ma?

-depressed-

at a moment, i was really wishing tmr would come soon... but it's okie.. nvm.. it's okie already... nothing would change it..

c i w w i

u z a s n t o r t h t
f u t p s t f m

o r o a n g e h h e m o r e

i dunno why, but it's okie.. no one's to blame this time.. cuz u promised them first.. there's always other days to go out... the only thing that u can do is a sms to me with a hug in it.. if within the next 15 min i receive it on my phone, i will feel alot better, and prolly forgive u for being forgetful and giving me false hope =)

Rondeau 21 is over... everything was a success... shall further update the ticket sales with u guys next week... (provided i rmb) lol

ytd watch dvd until i fell asleep... but slept happily, cuz i finally got to see him... omg.. machiam like drug... but it's a healthy drug i hope.

now! time to catch up with school work... tmr is WISP project.. and i have to search for articles, edit ppt slides and stuffs... if it wasn't for u, my work wouldn' have progressed this fast... thanks!!!! treat u to makan next time.. =)

okie.. gonna continue reading the articles.

-dun worry, be happy!-

this is me... the side of mewhich seldom people would get to see.. know why?



cuz i dun wear cap!!! lol =P

it belonged to my fren who's in ns now.

i'm having my nails done now.. vain pot = me.. hahaz.. but it's okie, it's no crime.

it's my last concert in VCH... tho the sales is not up to expectation, i believe, we would still put up a good performance.. gd luck and have fun everyone.. =)

what's wrong

was trying to post up some photos.. photos with me in a way, u would seldom or never see... but i tot it was nice...

hm.. saturday is the big day.. come and support!!! =)

-love u-

argh

hate being busy... i wan lots and lots of time now...

GROUP projects is piling up... prolly i'm too used to the time when we 3 would always do work overnight at either your hs or your hs. tt's why, asking me to stay after school now to do project feels so tiring and all. I dun like online discussion. Work can nv be done well, cuz there's no proper communication. no offence, all these are how i feel and my preferences. i know u people got your own preferences too. tt's why i'm not gonna comment on anything in front of you guys... dun wanna have disagreements within the grp. i have cca unlike others, so they could have all the time to do projects and stuffs. but i don't. Then when i sacrifice my weekends to do, the rest can't, cuz they have other "commitments". Whatever it is, i just wish myself to pass, and not more.

today band prac and baracuda practice clashed, but we had permission to go for baracuda practice, cuz our show is on next sat. OMG!!! so much gigs, performances and school work, can barely take a breather. except weekends. so i shall fully utilised my weekends to play and rest and more importantly ===> U

today i did a "practical test". i was so tired in tutorial today then i suddenly think of U, and ta-da! i'm damn awake. so now i will use U to make myself awake. lol! sounds so wrong.

i just now took out my notes to study in the bus on my way home, then when people of my age grp boarded the bus and walked near my seats all looked at me as if i'm being alienated. lol!! wonder what was wrong.

and therefore, i shall end here by saying.............. me wants to break free from all these, especially projects.

-shag(i know it's a wrong word to use but it sounds more impactful)-

1) OMG!! i love my company law tutor... today is my first tutorial with her... but she sarcastically nice... and u know she's joking and making us learn at the same time...

2) i miss you alot. did u too?

3) this girl is tutorial had to present but she wore such nice tops, such nice bottoms, then she wore TRAIL Slippers... so wrong!

4) i have to see the director of BA later at 4pm about my incident... tot my incident ended like long ago... hope she dun waste my time...