yippee... it's mummy's birthday today... wished her happy birthday but she doesn't seems to happy... why can't i have happy parents like others... happy and loving... it makes me sick seeing them always getting all so uptight over unneccessary stuffs.

but doesn't matter.. she's still my mum afterall.. just wish her all the best in the coming year.. and i know what she will wish for.. -a tai tai life she used to had-

tho she's not complaining about her being the solebreadwinner of the family.. but sometimes it hurts me to see her working so hard for us when my good-for-nothing father is getting all so lazy to work... or prolly only to me he's a uselss bum...

anyway... went to swee li to get baby his guitar strap.. din know which one he would like.. in the end took like an hour to decide. then decided on a red one.. looks a bit ah beng tho.. but it suits him la...

then went to school, supposed to go to SCC clubhouse to find baby to borrow his guitar with matin... then somehow went in and got a shock... my heart str8 away broke into pieces.. din know what to do, how to react.. so i finished what i had to say and walked away... as i promised, not to kick a fuss or scream or whatsoever anymore. then went to bandroom... couldn't help it and cried. then hazmi and mat was trying to console me silently. decided to follow matin to convention centre then baby called asking me to meet him. everything was cleared... no more misunderstandings and no more of these gonna happen again. surprisingly i wasn't very agitated. i was just heartbroken... u r the only one who can mend it back.

then after that percussion ensemble practice started... feels kinda better and happier. anyway, i finally can follow the score better for S&S. but still need more practice. and Peter Gunn is nice. baby joined in the fun too!

tml would be SCC concert. gonna be watching with mat only i think... supporters of baby... =) fillet gonna be on stage playing i think and ashraf, fadz and zrain gonna be busy with sound and lightings.

by the way for those who r reading my blog and knows that Desmond is my bf and u like him regardless of girl or guy... lemme remind you again.. (GUYS: he's not gay, cuz he has a gf and tt's me) (GIRLS: he's attached and not available, so dun try anything funny). he's all mine and i'm all his... tt's it...

-ilovedesmond-

today was a long day for everyone.. regardless of fun or work..

1st stumble today was waking up on the wrong side of the bed to get all so sensitive... then it's over.. everything is fine.. i know.

then gone down to meet matin. supposed to be helping him choose a gift for someone he like... but his criteria a bit weird... lol... he wants a mushroom pendant.. where do i find that kind of pendant dude. =)

then hazmi and aloysius came to meet us and we decided to watch "Night at the museum". freaking funny... but that was the only show with the best timing for us to end in time to meet the rest who supposed to join us later at Seesha... show ended around like 5 plus... realized Zrain is sick, Fadz caught Zr's virus as well... then both din help out at SCC today... then baby was still busy with his rehearsal and stuffs.. so knew that the chances of them coming is very minimal...

so four of us decided to head down to arab street first... had our meals while waiting for cheng liang to join.. then aloy went of for his sec sch party = gay party(you know what i mean)...

they made this out of my food.... i finally know what's this called = Foul with Harrissa and Hammus














then seesha-ed and stuffs then head on to esplanade... then saw some pre-event for a marina countdown event. it's actally signing your name and your wishes and resolutions on a ball.. which would be let off @ Esplanade river...





this is the river with the some balls let off already...

and these are what we wrote on the ball...





This is what matin wrote..

and this one below is written for Baby and Me...


Too bad we gonna miss this let off.. cuz we are performing for a countdown event!!! darn!!!.. nvm.. as long as baby accompany throughout... we still gonna have fun... plus all the BB people..

Baby Rocks!!!

i love you baby...

anyway... the behind part wasn't that good already... the day ended with all the blardy on-call cabs.. making me wait in the rain for more than 45 min... damn it.. hope i wun get sick...

-lovemyselfandu-

haven't gone home for 1 day.. and feels a lil dirty.. wore back the same clothes... but doesn't matter =D

ytd went over to Zrain's workplace = starbucks... ate and drank at no cost. =) everything was nice. then went to find baby to go home... dunno what was the purpose but i still did... tho there was no purpose but i think there's a reason why i would accompany him... simply becuz U (DESMOND) is an addiction. it's like nicotine. one day of not having nicotine, blood will rush very vigourously, then symptoms of headache will show... but u know what? it's a good addiction... =) it means i can't live without this addiction.

Baby is busy with his annual concert on coming saturday... but the thing i feel like doing is just sit down there and get ready with the things he need. e.g he needs food, it'll be there... basically it means, i'm willing to see to his needs... say i'm dumb. However, i wonder why he seems to be a different person in front of me when he's with his fren or alone... or prolly i think a tat too much. (gurls... sensitivity... but can't really blame them cuz they need secure and loads of love).

today stayed in school for awhile then gone to ACER with Hazmi... his lappy screen is a disaster!!! the screen cracks from one end to another end... and cuz he dun wan his dad to know that he dropped the lappy, so he brought it to repair center himself but he wants his dad to collect on behalf of him cuz the dad will pay... It's nearly $400/- exploitation =D then went to IMM to get food for baby...

dunno what kinda feelings stirred in you when u knew i bought food for you even though it's cold (isn't my fault (= ) and baby, can i have the feeling of being wanted? realized that u haven't answer a single thing whenever i asked u a question thru the blog. sometimes, things spoken in writing could be better plus i'm shy. =)

hm... haven't wrote this long for quite some time. it's now 1.34am and i'm feeling sleepy... so off to lala land...

-i love baby desmond-

by: your lifelong property

MERRY X'MAS Everyone!!! =P

it's the first day of christmas.. =) and my true love sent to me... a happy holiday for me...

just came back from Rasa and KL... it was tons of funs... and a lil of arguements too..

but everything is fine and our hearts are closer.. u said it too... photos will be uploaded soon... i hope..

din felt like leaving u.. din felt like going back.. everything was like just ytd... so fun...

went from a average apartment in KL, Damai to a 5-star Hotel in Shangri-La... photos deleted... unreasonbleness in me i guess... a lil fussy.. a lil princessy... but i know baby still loves me as much... or prolly even more... =)

i hope thru'out the whole trip u have been taken care of by me very well. lemme know if i did? =)

*baby... sometimes i might be very unreasonable.. but u know i wun mean anything i say when i'm angry... cuz u know i love u... *

today was the most adventurous day for bus rides... SBS gonna lose a lil this month... me and hazmi took 7 bus just to get from TPY to Sembawang BB's Camp.. and it's damn "ulu"

went there to perform for the visual care organization kids... organization for the needy children...



This guy is performing magic show for the kids... he is one kind of a lame and could sense that he brought joy to the kids...







before that had prata at Jalan Kayu... it's super not nice... guess why... (went to the wrong one!!!!!!)

if u can see... all the sweetener on the tissue prata... OMG!!! Diabetic man.














overall was damn fun.. and did i mentioned that the kids are cuteeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! i want one toooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

and look at this...

okie.. it's not cute or adorable. but doesn't matter... =) youth gonna be over for me soon so must be daring... =P i gonna be AUNTIE!!! LoL =P

the day ended by going to Macs @ KAP as usual to have my corn cup...

-u bring me sunshine after the rain-

Promised u people more photos. Finally uploaded photos into my lappy... -_-

-Baracuda Batucada at the Nokia 80s Party in Shangri-La Hotel-
-17th Nov 2006-



Hazmi and me getting all self-obssessed



Dinner before show started at Macs



Carved ice with fruits and fondue dip on it... OMG!!!! higH!!!



EWWWW... me and Xiao Hui holding the slimmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyy snake.



This are the 3 ladies giving away free ice-cream.. now how does that sounds??



i know i look spastic. dun commentttt









-Baracuda Outing at Cafe Le Caire @ Al Majlis-
-2nd December 2006-




Zrain n Seesha



Me n Seesha

promised you guys photos... =)

Hazmi's and his group event. >FunkBLasT<



Kinda dark but this's Halfestride! With Matin on Drums, Fillet on Jembe, Fadz on Bass Guitar, Ashraf on Lead guitar and Ros vocalist!!!!



This is Halfestride with Hazmi and his group.



This is of course Baracuda with Hazmi and his group.

It was a tiring but fun day!!!

been a long time since i've updated the blog... sorry ya... been busy with Common TesT and finally it's over... but din have chance to rest much... had percussion ensemble practice and i can't play the mallets well... LOL! sorry conrad... i'll practice. then later at 2pm gotta be in school to prepare for Haz's event. supposed to be enjoying with ah beng and frenz at sentosa.. sorry ah beng =) tml still got baracuda performance at somewhere... but i dunno where... =) feels so tired easily nowadays... i wonder why... and tummy's growling again...

-gone to get food-
-miss baby-

it's been so long... or rather, my blog a lil stagnant.. but guess it's gd once in a while.

many things happening. quarrels, happiness, anxiety, exhaustion, sadness, anger... all so overwhelming... feels like everything was just ytd.

I love everyone who is always there for me...

esp. ah beng... =P desmond ah beng for everything...
imzah... =P hazmi for his jokes and ur free concert ticket... (cheapo) lol
mich... =P for listening to my woes...
matin... =P looking at the past when baracuda just started (lol)

anyway, went to watch hazmi's concert ytd with matin, chengliang and fauzi.. sarah and beatrice were there too... loyal supporter of hazmi. lol! then went to eat satay. EXCITED! ate satay first time.. and mutton taste better than chicken... =)

then someoneeeeeeee say i from some mountain............ u know who u r... =P whahahah... (sarah... not u...) lol!

anyway... have been mugging for exams... then went got too stressed, all i need to do is just think of u, and everything is fine... u really made me feel complete...

had some other negative problems too. the point of no return... sorry.

*gd luck and all the best to those having exams this week!

-u've created an angel in me-

had a wonderful day today.. =) everything was fine.. tho project meeting was screwed up, but i couldn't care less. cuz i know i wan to do it well... we din get our chance to present, cuz went to NUS and orchard for field trip with Miss Rajoo. NUS was about some nobel prize and we still had to pay to go in.. It's 1 buck. lol but it's alot to a poor girl like me =P nevertheless, had some fun and boredom too. guess nobel stuffs not my kind of things. then head down to town ard 6 plus to just look at how the corporate world in the heartlands of singapore communicate with their loyal customers. u know how? by looking at how they display their products in the display windows. LOL!!! this whole trip was kinda tiring tho. =) NP should provide the damn shuttle bus for us cover ALL cost required =)

took some photos with the girls. shall upload it asap i promise

-i love you baby, u make me feel complete-

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

hectic week... ytd had baracuda outing and meeting.. went to arab street to eat... mine was something like "foul de harissa and mu...." lol. can't rmb... took photos but can't upload but promise that i will upload it soon. then had Seesha.. oOoo. it's strawberry flavour.. decided to watch movie at first. (Tenacious D) but fillet can't watch. M18. Then i suggested to go Maestro Bistro to eat ice cream but fren wasn't working, thus no discount. Cheapos! lol! then went to have Swensens instead - Sticky Chewy Chocolate - WeEts!

got home ard 12.45 or 1am. can't rmb. felt very exhuasted.

u know, sometimes u can be the one making the initiative to sms me or call me, i'll be around. and what kind of time restraints would u have, u have no more exams, no more worries, no ccas, I HAVE!!! i perservering and waiting....

Baby, i miss you, can't wait to see u soon!!!

-Drifting Away-