yippee... it's mummy's birthday today... wished her happy birthday but she doesn't seems to happy... why can't i have happy parents like others... happy and loving... it makes me sick seeing them always getting all so uptight over unneccessary stuffs.

but doesn't matter.. she's still my mum afterall.. just wish her all the best in the coming year.. and i know what she will wish for.. -a tai tai life she used to had-

tho she's not complaining about her being the solebreadwinner of the family.. but sometimes it hurts me to see her working so hard for us when my good-for-nothing father is getting all so lazy to work... or prolly only to me he's a uselss bum...

anyway... went to swee li to get baby his guitar strap.. din know which one he would like.. in the end took like an hour to decide. then decided on a red one.. looks a bit ah beng tho.. but it suits him la...

then went to school, supposed to go to SCC clubhouse to find baby to borrow his guitar with matin... then somehow went in and got a shock... my heart str8 away broke into pieces.. din know what to do, how to react.. so i finished what i had to say and walked away... as i promised, not to kick a fuss or scream or whatsoever anymore. then went to bandroom... couldn't help it and cried. then hazmi and mat was trying to console me silently. decided to follow matin to convention centre then baby called asking me to meet him. everything was cleared... no more misunderstandings and no more of these gonna happen again. surprisingly i wasn't very agitated. i was just heartbroken... u r the only one who can mend it back.

then after that percussion ensemble practice started... feels kinda better and happier. anyway, i finally can follow the score better for S&S. but still need more practice. and Peter Gunn is nice. baby joined in the fun too!

tml would be SCC concert. gonna be watching with mat only i think... supporters of baby... =) fillet gonna be on stage playing i think and ashraf, fadz and zrain gonna be busy with sound and lightings.

by the way for those who r reading my blog and knows that Desmond is my bf and u like him regardless of girl or guy... lemme remind you again.. (GUYS: he's not gay, cuz he has a gf and tt's me) (GIRLS: he's attached and not available, so dun try anything funny). he's all mine and i'm all his... tt's it...

-ilovedesmond-